1st blog from dis year, year 2008

it's 1 am nw. jz finished marking sum form 2 exam papers. sum did well, bt sum didn. hehe.

stpm has released by today. not gud, or can say is WORST, worst in my life. PA grade B, physics grade C-, chemistry grade D+ n lastly, maths, de subject i headache most, grade F. cant get myself in2 engineering courses, my future still floating on de surface of water, up n down, unstable. jz nw i appear off9 as i needed, jz let sum frens acknowledge my appearance. 1 of my fren did scold me, although she might nt, mayb jz advising, bt it makes me felt guilty, de moment jz lk a naughty child doing de wrong thing, stand straight in front of his mother, down his head, n waiting 4 de punishment. haha dun worry its nt ur fault! jz my feelings. who asked me nt doing well when exam leh... i noe is my fault, nt pushing myself while studies, nt dedicated myself everytime 2 read de books, decided nt use full strength 2 strive 4 victory, seems lk its nt a gud manner acted 2 ur opponent huh? sry la mr stpm, im jz nt dedicated, n i didn respect u well, n nw de result has released, i deserved wat shud i deserved. no choice. so, i hav 2 pay hard work 2 find a gud uni, continue my study life. i wont giv up. jz ym thought, if cant get a gud uni, how i supposed 2 get well-educated? ha...

b4 she off9, i meant my fren jz nw, she asked me nt 2 b worry, neither stpm results nor sch stuffs. haha! dun worry, i really gt nth, really. no suprise, no happiness ( it supposed nt 2 b), no sadness, no struggle, no pain. everything jz being... NORMAL. i still hav long way 2 go, dis cant stop me dis time. mayb dats de feeling called heart-dead. anyway i shud thx 2 her, still try 2 cheer me up no matter how busy she was, BAGA! she shud worry abt herself first. u dun hav self-confidence, bt u might havnt notice, u jz simply say so, bt ur body will lead u 2 do dats "impossible" to u, n u will called dis as "automatic". ha! how funny it is. haha, dats y u dun need 2 force urself too much. do as much as u can, den de luck will follow u everytime. well, i cant giv up, i wont giv up, sry 2 my lou yau again, i cant jump down from komtar wiv u yet, i gt work which still awaiting me 2 accomplish it. nw, i will focus on leading de phor tay krs 2 get champion when incoming sports day, n i will try my best 2 do it. MADA MADA DANE! ^^dun worry dun worry, im nth~ haha
oya, b4 i 4get, THX~~~! haha, u noe who i thx 2 la... keke...



(p.s. : wakao!! i neva thought dat i will write such long since i din blogging quite a longer time, geez...)